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Au Revoir Mamie by kaiser-mony Au Revoir Mamie by kaiser-mony
So this was a drawing I drew 2 years ago after the passing of my grandmother, whom I called Mamie. 
It was, indeed, the most painful loss of my entire life.
My grandmother was the one who raised me until I was about 19 years old. I grew to know her as a mother, rather then a typical grandparent. My parents were absent during my life and there was not much connection with my mother because of this. My grandmother became my strong female role model. She was the one who brought me to school, made sure my homework was done and encouraged me to keep drawing. My favourite moments with her were how we would talk about religion, philosophy and life until the late hours of the night. I remember summer nights, while we talked, we usually saw fireflies in the garden as we sipped tea or coffee.

Grief is a funny thing with lots of ups and downs. It still comes up randomly in my moments of my life. I'll get a deep sadness out of nowhere and think about how much I miss this person in my life. After her funeral, I felt oddly very peaceful (or maybe just very numb) during certain points of my grieving. The little stresses in life didn't get to me anymore. I let them go because the pain of such a huge loss taught me that those small things don't matter. In the end it's how we loved that matters.
I also felt a greater sense of connection to those around me. I taught about how we will ultimately all loose the people we love most and the pain we will all feel. It's a universal pain, I felt so much empathy during those times for everyone around me. We will all go through this immense loss, but it's much better going through it together.

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This was a very personal artist comment ha ha I don't speak or write about this memory very much. I felt it was time to let some out.

Thank you all for listening and supporting me thus far! I can't say how much I appreciate every comment and +fav.

I post more sketches on my Instagram. But I will always post full pieces here :)
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aryleb Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Art is one of the few forms of communication in life that can so beautifully transmit a message from one heart to another, across time, space, and even death. I'm so sorry for your loss. This a beautiful tribute to what must have been a most extraordinary woman. 
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louistik Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm very sorry for your loss, and I think that this drawing is a wonderful tribute to her. Beautiful way to say goodbye... 
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you.... it was hard but I'm glad I fnished it :hug: :") 
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daaash Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2017  Professional General Artist
So beautiful and touching <3
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you :hug:
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iCheddar Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is a beautiful tribute to her. I'm sorry for your loss darling
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you :") :hug:
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marie-ad96 Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2017
I'm sorry for your loss and I'm touched that you shared this with the dA community.
May she rest in peace and pride knowing how far you've come since you were young. <3
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh thank you so much :heart: 
I'm happy that it did :hug:
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Nova-V Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
this has so much feels sensei. Really love the colors and conception here :3 
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much :heart::hug:
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Nova-V Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
welcome~~ :3 :hug:
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luniara Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
I don't usually take a lot of time to comment but this made me stop, pause and really look into what you depicted. As someone who depicts grieve every year, I can truly appreciate you opening yourself up and illustrating such a beautiful tribute to your loved one. The composition, emotions and colors are absolutely beautiful and I can feel both the pain of loss yet peace of love radiating from this piece.

Beautiful work, as always.
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much :heart: Your comment is deeply appreciated! 

It was definitely difficult for me to write and draw this. So i'm really happy to see that it convey the message I wanted :hug:
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Aeveternal Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
This is such a gorgeous piece of art but I don't think it could justly express the emotions you had when making it. I also had a close relationship with my grandmother and it really hurt when she passed many years ago, so I feel ya, bud.
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Definitely! I actually cried A LOT while I was drawing and had to stop multiple times since it was right afterwards. 

I'm sorry to hear that too :hug: Grandmothers are special people :heart: 
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nienkiepinkie Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017  Student Digital Artist
your love reflects in the artwork, I'm sure she will be with you always :heart: 
Thank you for sharing your story and this piece. 
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the comment :hug: I like to think that she's here too! 
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nienkiepinkie Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2017  Student Digital Artist
:heart: :) 
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pucchu Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I never knew my granma's , but, I think, I understand the feeling you had with her. She left you a lot of good experiences and a lot of love-self, so she is always with you! :)
However, wonderful draw, like always <3
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you! I like to think that she is here too :hug:  :heart:
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Colorfulmoongato Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm so sorry for your loss, especially of someone who seems so beautiful in spirit and mind.
Gorgeous tribute to her -^^-
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh thank you so much :hug: 
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Scarlett-Aimpyh Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Amazing painting, I also think everything you wrote in your message is so true.
Many hugs to you ~
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you! :hug: 
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P0Dy Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017
Amazing art with amazing message, your story is really moving ...
I wish I had your strength for facing obstacles like you. You're so brave.
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much.

Oh wow....no one has ever called me brave before. That was really touching. I never thought about it that way :heart: I'm sure you have the strength too, it's in all of us :hug:
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P0Dy Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2017
But for most of the people, they're late in discovering it.
You seem very mature and you perfectly know what strength is. It will help you in going forward in life. 
You have my entire respect.
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scaredofspiders Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  New Deviant Hobbyist Photographer
Grieving is evident in the piece but also the love and beauty of your relationship. This is a very touching piece of art.
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you SO much :heart: 
That was nice to read ~
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LiliEhlm Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  New Deviant Hobbyist Writer
This is really, really beautiful ♥
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you :")
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LiliEhlm Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  New Deviant Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome ♥
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pettylavaring Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm sorry for your granny. It's a very emotional artwork.
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much :heart:
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camolie Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This made my cry so hard...I can relate entirely. Beautfiul piece, I'm sure she would have been proud of you. 
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
*HUG* :heart: I feel a connection to those who can relate to this deep pain. It's like knowing we're not alone. I hope that all is well in your life! 

Thank you !
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VivekJagtap Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  Hobbyist Artist
I also lost my grandMother last year! Miss her so much!
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Sorry to hear :heart: I hope you are doing better!
It's very difficult.
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FurMomma Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  New Deviant
absolutely beautiful piece of art. Your personal story touched me deeply. My grandmother lived with us from the time I was 5 until her death when I was 17. I was also devastated.
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you! 

That is very hard as well..I'm sorry for your loss as well :'( 
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dark-magician-nikoru Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Beautiful story and memories. She would be proud of the person you've become today! You're talented, beautiful and all around awesome! This piece is so beautiful and I can tell how much you loved her~ :heart:
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much :heart: 
Your comment means a lot :") 
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hologramnightmare Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  Student Traditional Artist
Im really sorry man, i've lost people in my life to. your art always amazes me
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much :heart:

I'm sorry to hear that as well. It's so hard
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