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Au Revoir Mamie

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So this was a drawing I drew 2 years ago after the passing of my grandmother, whom I called Mamie. 
It was, indeed, the most painful loss of my entire life.
My grandmother was the one who raised me until I was about 19 years old. I grew to know her as a mother, rather then a typical grandparent. My parents were absent during my life and there was not much connection with my mother because of this. My grandmother became my strong female role model. She was the one who brought me to school, made sure my homework was done and encouraged me to keep drawing. My favourite moments with her were how we would talk about religion, philosophy and life until the late hours of the night. I remember summer nights, while we talked, we usually saw fireflies in the garden as we sipped tea or coffee.

Grief is a funny thing with lots of ups and downs. It still comes up randomly in my moments of my life. I'll get a deep sadness out of nowhere and think about how much I miss this person in my life. After her funeral, I felt oddly very peaceful (or maybe just very numb) during certain points of my grieving. The little stresses in life didn't get to me anymore. I let them go because the pain of such a huge loss taught me that those small things don't matter. In the end it's how we loved that matters.
I also felt a greater sense of connection to those around me. I taught about how we will ultimately all loose the people we love most and the pain we will all feel. It's a universal pain, I felt so much empathy during those times for everyone around me. We will all go through this immense loss, but it's much better going through it together.

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This was a very personal artist comment ha ha I don't speak or write about this memory very much. I felt it was time to let some out.

Thank you all for listening and supporting me thus far! I can't say how much I appreciate every comment and +fav.

I post more sketches on my Instagram. But I will always post full pieces here :)
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I lost both my grandparents in the span of 4 years almost 5 now my grandad died in January he was like a second father to me and my Nan was a huge role model in the family, she was a strong female role model and she went through many hardships. This heart piece shows how much you loved her and all the passion you put into it. I tried to draw something but greif got the better of me and I couldnt draw for months. but your right greif does teach you to let go of small things because the true pain of loosing someone so dear to your heart is the worst thing you could possibly happen to you. It changes you even, matures you but at the same time things never feel the same but after a while your at piece with it.
Very beautiful artwork xxx