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One Year woah!

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 16, 2014, 11:49 PM


So woah! It's been a year since my past journal....oh jeez! I wonder if people still even read journals anymore? Seems like everyone likes quick posts one sentence statuses on tweeter or tumblr nowadays!
Well, I'll still write one regardless x)


So, where to even begin? So much has happened in the past year. I feel I'm still growing and realize, I have a long ways to go but I'm still on my two feet going somewhere! :)

Some good news is, I teamed up with a wonderful team/company called Threyda! Please go visit them and if you can support!! I'm so happy to be able to be part of such a talented group of visionary artists and they go and support some causes that I'm very much for, including spiritual growth and compassion.

Secondly, I did get a Society 6 Shop and DeviantArt Print Shop, where you can find my fan art prints and smaller (not as big as what Threyda offers) sizes of my originals! Anything I make now helps...since well I'm jobless. THE CHICKEN BUSINESS WENT DOWN MAN. IT'S ALL OVER. LOL Well actually they had to change locations and I couldn't work there anymore. I was sad because my boss was a kind man and it was a pleasure to be able to work under him and his family. I can only hope my next employer is like that!

That's basically me ALL DAY ERR'DAY. LOL ....the amount of docs I've watched on Netflix hahaha Specially after discovering the American version. omg. It was glorious...my little Canadian mind was overwhelmed with videos. D':


And since I spend more time at home...I spend more time with that damn remote. GOD DAMNIT.
Technology is moving to fast for me. I know I'm going to be that old fart yelling at the TV going "BACK IN MY DAY" LOL
Also, Luis is my brother's name.

Speaking of my brother, here's a list of thing he's done recently. He really needs his own show...the things this kid does. I don't know anymore hahahah

Is anyone else aware of the shadow people phenomena? D: Well my brother gladly made me aware...it's quiet terrifying. Sleep paralysis sounds horrible and he copes with it every night. He once told me that one of them wore a hat and stood at the edge of his bed. IDK MAN but I would pee my bed if I saw that hahahaha


He really wants cowboy boots LOL (that's his girlfriend haha)


My brother used almond milk instead of regular milk for Kraft Dinner. So if he can teach you anything....it's don't use almond milk for kraft dinner LOL Clearly.


This is my nonno aka grandfather....yes, he actually said this. I will one day make a segment of "things my nonno says" because they're usually all golden tid bits like this one hahaha


Another interesting person in my life...my mom. LOL That's the most accurate drawing of her of ALL TIME. haha And on the right is an example of notes that she leaves around the house haha .....yes those are cats on the bottom too  =_= lol


They kind of do though.




My boyfriend and all his gab teeth glory LOL :B ..he's....special........................:heart: hahahaha
(his butt looks like two apples in a plastic bag. JUST thought everyone should know that LOL)


AAANNNDDD I'm going to put out embarrassing things 8D  that's actually why I'm here.


Yes, I actually did this.


Ever walk underneath a lamp post and it turns off ?  I always feel like I have no soul when that happens hahaha okay, maybe it's just me.


Canadian geese...........Canada's assholes D': They scare me.....unless they're babies then they just look like they have lemon shaped butts and that makes me laugh hahaha


This is what I sound like when I describe the quality of my paper at conventions.........I really care about it but I end up sounding like a drug dealer LOLOL
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One last thing I feel I should talk about that is something that affected me so profoundly and still continues to do so to this day......is the death of my Mamie (aka grandmother). The one who raised me until I moved out at the age of 19 yet I still held strong holds and ties to her as I considered her my mother. She taught me so much about the world, including french and the importance of learning, travel and how to be respectful towards other people. I never really got to publicly talk about this since it happened on October 29th because I didn't know what to say or do. That month proved to be the hardest thing I've ever faced in my life.
The pain was so great, it was hard to vocalize it without judging myself or being afraid of what others would think or sometimes I even felt bad that my pain was making others sad. But I was taught a valuable lesson on those days during the funeral....and that is seeing how truly empathic and compassion others are capable of being. I was surrounded by loved ones and even though we were all suffering, we were able to stay by each other and offer the warmest care to one and other by simply being there. I was happy to see my family, friends and boyfriend care so deeply for me and everyone around them. This is the strength that we carry and I think if Mamie could see that, she would be happy that we're together since she was always the one who brought the family together.



Anyways, grief is hard...very very hard, but it's a part of life and the show must go on. In the end, I am okay, I can laugh and smile again. There rare moments were I'll get a memory of her and I'll tear up a bit....but I'm finally okay with being able to grieve naturally which includes crying and feeling sad. Those are not negative things because it means you're still human which come with a rainbow of emotions and that in itself is beautiful.


I will go now :D Those are things that needed to be said, even if no one reads it, that's okay!
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Thank you for being a supporter of my art, it's greatly appreciated! I'm glad you like what I can do and I'll continue to do so:star:

  • Mood: Peaceful
  • Listening to: Young Blood - The Naked and Famous
  • Reading: Bhagavad Gita
  • Watching: The X-Files
  • Drinking: Honey, Lemon and Ginger Tea
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KurushimiFutago Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
We really enjoyed reading this journal, it was fun to look at all the doodles you've done for it~ Your family also seems really interesting, haha~ :meow: :meow:

We're sorry to read about your grandmother, and we know that grieving is really hard... But it's good to know that it is getting better for you~
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FuK~u
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Candy-DanteL Featured By Owner May 2, 2014
Ahaha I always love those little doodles describing your life. Always brings a smile to my face xD (Haha your boyfriend's gap teeth..I have them too, lol! I heard it's called "the London look" or something.. 'cause a famous makeup brand uses models with gap teeth xD)

I'm so sorry for your loss. What you wrote up there regarding your grandmother was beautiful, I teared up. ahaha :hug:

Keep on truckin'! You write the awesomest journals, I missed them! It's good to hear from you C: <3
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner May 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hehehe thank you so much! x"D 

HAHAHAHA You have gap teeth too!?! That's amazing x'D It's unique and you should rock it!! lolol I had no idea they used models with gap teeth omg!! xD )

Thank you <3 It made me feel a lot better to finally write it out.......It's still a healing process but it gets better with time. :hug: 

I'm glad you like reading my journals!! It makes it all worth it! n__n" 
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Magianna Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2014  Student General Artist
I don't know what to say... just thank you for your journal, it was really nice to read this. I'm sorry for your lost. I believe you'll meet your grandmother one day :hug:
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner May 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
wow thank you so much :") That really means a lot to hear :heart: 


I think so too! I often dream of speaking with her...it's really comforting :)
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AerynLeafy Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2014
:hug: So glad you're doing alright now. And very happy you and Mel were able to make it out here! :D We should do that again when it's not so cold lol

Almost asshole... lmfao. Your brother. What even is he xD

And your mother hahaha I just hear you mimicking her "The babies" lmao

How are the cosplays going?? I'm stressing out a bit here LOL D: One month left D: D: D:
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug: Thank you Erin :)

yes!! We had a lot of fun that night!! I was just telling her we definitely have to go back up :heart:

WE'RE NOT SURE WHAT HE IS :|  LOLLOL

The bbabieesss xD Sadly, the other day I learnt one of her passwords involved the words 'thebabies' lmao I died

OMG.
I'm so stressed too you have no idea D'8 I hate it when I see people post "yay x days until AN!".....I HAVE A PANIC ATTACK EACH TIME LOL I'm half way done the 3D gear ...I'm just waiting on materials to arrive in the mail to continue but ugghhhasidja

what about you?! What's left? D:
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AerynLeafy Featured By Owner May 1, 2014
For sure! We'll do it again in the summer :) I was also thinking of organizing a cosplay picnic again like we did with Hetalia :D Not sure when or where lol but maybe if everyone's interested!

lmfaooo that's adorable xD

ME TOO MAN. I wish people would stop telling me it's May D: D: D: The mail wait is the WORST ;A;
I'm doing... alright. Mostly done mine and Nic's outfits, other than my giant sword. But Lisa's... ugh armour OTL Running into some problems there.
And we haven't even found the fabric for our Friday cosplay LOLLLLLLL OTL;;;;;
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner May 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oooh!! That'd be awesome!! :D I'd love to do another picnic :heart:
I'll be really busy in the summer....but I hope a day can work for me. I'm going to a con basically every weekend on August and on July 15-21 I got invited as a guest artist to a festival in West Virginia (i'm so excited xD)! 

AHHHHH
GOOD LUCK!!! :star: IT'S CRUNCH TIME!! I'm stressing harder now hahaha
I'm sure all your cosplays will look amazing!! I can't wait to see you girls :
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AerynLeafy Featured By Owner May 15, 2014
We'll try to find a day that works for everyone :)

Every weekend!!? Wow I'm jealous! Are you selling your art of all of them?
WHOA congrats! That's amazing! You deserve it! :D

EIGHT DAYS. D: D: D:
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DeltaRee Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Your journals always make me so happy!! I love your little doodles! :heart:

I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother though. ;~; I know first hand how losing a loved one can be very hard, and I'm glad to see that you seem to be getting better! Sending you positive thoughts and I can't wait to invade your table at AN! :> 
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner May 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hahaha oh why thank you! n__n""
 
It's definitely one of the hardest things we ever have to do in our lives.....it's so painful )": But time heals all, and we're all so strong we can endure! Thank you!

haha yes please, come see me! I'll be in the Pro Plaza~ I just got my table location it's: PP06 ! :D
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Crystalstone Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Congratulations on collaborating with that company! I just know you'll be brilliant! Your family and your boyfriend sound like really awesome people!
Oh gosh, the doodles you draw along with these journals are so entertaining and cute I get the biggest smile when I see them.
I'm sorry for your loss. Dealing with a loss of a loved one, especially grandparents, is especially difficult. I know exactly how you feel. I know it must have taken a lot of courage for you to come out and talk about those personal things publically, and that certainly makes you a stronger person than you were before. :)
I hope you continue to succeed in all your endeavors and keep living life to the fullest!
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LiquidCocaine-Photos Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
*HUGS* I never get tired of these journals, and now that I'm back on dA too, all the shenanigans!!! XD
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner May 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
YAY xD:heart:

I know omg I neglect DA so much nowadays!! lol  Well it's still nice to see we meet up here online once and while xDD
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TsukiLion Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Professional Interface Designer
I think we all missed your wonderful journals and funny stories XD your art is amazing and hope you keep doing great things and one day I'll also be able to buy one thing from you with an autograph and all plz xDD :heart:
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner May 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Aw gosh x"D That's flattering!!

Thank you so much ; 3 ; :hug:

Yus, I'll definitely sign it:heart: I can even give you something extra if you order off my etsy xD
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sandyrinky Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Your little comics throughout your journal are so great :) Hehe!

I just gotta say-- Sleep paralysis is a huge bitch. I've been fortunate enough where I've not managed to open my eyes to see hallucinations that some people get, like the shadow people your brother sees, but I can still vouch that it's a terrifying moment where your brain is awake, but your body won't move. I have had auditory hallucinations-- like explosion sounds, howling wind-like sounds, and one time girls screaming "What's going on?!" accompanied by explosion sounds. I feel for your brother :( But it seems like he has found his own way to cope with an unfortunate phenomenon. And that's good :) I'm much better at dealing with it now myself than I was.

I just wanted to throw that in there because it was something that stood out to me in your journal.

And I'm happy to hear that even with such great loss, you are finding your way again. She's with you in memory and what she has taught you will surely ripple through whatever you do during your lifetime, and in that sense, her touch is still very much alive in this world still.

Thank you for sharing these moments, memories, thoughts and insights :D
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InvisibleKing Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Your life, sounds like so much fun xd. And yeh, there's a lamp that turns off EVERY time I pass by it on my way back home from school = - =///
Also, sorry for your loss, it's good to know you are okay now ~
This was one of the most awesome journals I read so far, I wouldn't mind waiting a year for another one like this xd
god damn it geese keep those away from me//
Have a nice day, you made mine~
[ugh sorry if this comment sounds awkwardly friendly and makes you incomfortable :C]
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hahaha x'D well I'm glad you liked my journal ! :heart:
Yes! I have one that turns off outside my house everytime too!! LOLOL

Thank you for your sympathy :) That means a lot!

Have a nice day too, aw ! :wave:

No worries!! I am friendly myself so I'm on uncomfortable at all! xD
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InvisibleKing Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
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dark-magician-nikoru Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It's good to hear that you're still alive~! Are you planning on attending Anime North this year? I would love to see you again! :la:

OHHHHH the adventures you have, Mony lol Your boyfriend is so awesome~! so many random encounters! lol

But... I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother, hun... It's never easy to lose someone you love.
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yep, still alive!! lol

I am!! :D  I will be in the Pro Plaza selling original prints! Come see meee!

hahaha random encounters and people make my day or life x'D :heart::heart:

 I know, it was very difficult, thank you for your sympathy :hug:
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manda-j-panda Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I really enjoyed reading this! You're sketches are so fun! :3 I think that geese in general are scary... when my grandmother would take us to the local park to feed the ducks, all the geese (Canadian and the plain white ones) would always bully their way up to the front and grab right from your hands. All of us kids would end up just pitching handfuls at a time, scared to death D8

My sympathies for your loss- I remember when my grandmother died (I was 8). Even though that was years ago, she was the one who took care of me and my siblings while my mom worked and helped out because my dad wasn't so great at being there. I don't think we could have done it without her. :heart: You stay strong :huggle: Sending positive thoughts your way!
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hahaha why thank you x) I'm so glad you enjoyed reading!!

HAHAHAHA Omg, that's terrifying!!! D8 
I would throw the food and run!! hahahaha 

Thank you for your sympathies, that means a lot :hug::heart: 
Ah, it seems you had the same sort of up bringing as me! Both my parents couldn't take care of all three of us so we lived with our grand parents too! I'm sad to hear that the loss happened so soon for you :< But i'm inspired you stayed strong as well!

I'm sending positive thoughts to you too! :
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LadyNoise Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014
Moni~ Your journals are always entertaining! I love your sketches~

Haha, I still think that your brother and my brother should never meet. They are too much alike and I dont think the world could handle that. XD

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother. I know the feeling all too well, my dad just died March 27th...and I miss him terribly. It happened so suddenly too. T^T My family was also brought closer together, my half siblings (whom I haven't really talked to in years) keep in touch and keep saying they'd be there if we need anything. Its really hard because I was really dependent on my dad and now I'm being forced to move and and I have no money/job...its just so stressful. Stay strong. :huggle:
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
OH thank you :D

hahahaha oh lord, the universe might implode!! We'll make sure that never happens xDD


Thank you:heart:
oh wow, my deepest sympathy to you and your family :(Your situation sounds very rough...... I wish you the best:heart: I'm sending you positive thoughts, please stay strong! I'm sure whatever you do in the future, your dad will be proud. All the best my dear ;_; :hug::heart: I'm glad your family could bond together as well, it's so crucial during tough times like these!
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LadyNoise Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014
Haha, exactly. I keep an eye on him to begin with because
sometimes I can't believe the things he says and does. xD

Thank you so much! I'm sure we'll think of something to do
and at least we do have each other. It is very stressful but
I'm staying as positive as I can be. ^-^
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Chorongee Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014  Hobbyist
i actually think you and your art are rather amazing and just wow...~I say
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
haha oh wow...that's really great to hear :") Thank you! That made my day!:hug:
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TerribleToadQueen Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014
<3
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
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PlasticRabbits Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You are amazingly wonderful, thank you for sharing all of this with us. I am really looking forward to each and every piece of art you will be posting. My sympathies for your loss, it good that you are growing and learning from it. Here's to another year filled with growth and development! <3 
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
wow thank you :") That really means a lot :heart:

Cheers to another year!! I hope it is full of growth and development as well!!
Thank you for your kind comment:hug:
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Birdz555 Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Canadian geese are scary! I always try to walk around them from fear of their wrath.

The little comics in your journal are so cute! Good to know you're doing well :)
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hahahaha omg me too! I always try to avoid them too!! lolol


Oh, thank you! x) 
Yup, doing alriigghhttt for myself ha ha
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thearisu Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014  Hobbyist
This was such a lovely journal <3
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hahaha aw why thank you :)
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YourFantasyInCosplay Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
i'm sorry for your loss bbyyyy *hugs*
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks bby <3 :hug::heart:
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RocknamLee Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014
I love these small comics, you need to make a full book one day!
Also, the reason why the lights turn off when you walk underneath them (or when I drive by mine), is that your power level is so high that your body's electricity blows it out. It's true.

You do Twitter? : O
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hahaha oh lord, it would be too much insanity for one book x)

TRUE FACTS MIKE. 

No I don't :
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BlueShadowM Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I love love your journals! The longer the better! Think it's because of all the silly little drawings which always makes my day better. ^^
Yes, I know about shadow people. Haven't seen any though. I feel the same about them I do about ghosts. It would be awesome to see one but it I did I would probably have a heart attack or something. Haha! And probably more so with a shadow person(?) than with a ghost. Ghosts seem a tiny bit less frightening. =P
Gotta love crazy families. ^^
I'm sorry to hear about your grandma. Good that you feel better now. Even if the show must go on it's sometimes hard to make it so. I'm sure she is watching over you.
And as always I love your art. It always makes me smile. :huggle:
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hahaha oh why thank you! :"D I'm happy that you like my silly doodles!

omg yes, I share your same views on anything supernatural!! ha ha ha I'm extremely fascinated....but would be scared shitless if I saw antyhing xDD 
Shadow people seem terrifying....just a bunch of silhouettes of people coming down the stairs. D8

:heart: Indeed, they make life interesting!

Thank you, that means a lot! :) It's hard but there always seems to be a light at the end of each tunnel! lol I hope she is :

Thanks again!! :hug: n_n
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BlueShadowM Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I really do! They are so much fun ^^

Haha! I know right! It's so fascinating and scary at the same time so you read about it and watch documenaties about it and then you can't sleep 'cause the room is to dark and you ask yourself why you were so stupid to read about it, but then a while later when you feel fine you're drawn back in and start reading again. Haha! It's an endless cykle for me. xD
I think I saw a tv-show (don't remember which one) where someone talked about seeing a shadow person with a hat. I wonder if hats are common for shadow people to wear. =P

I miss my crazy family. We always have a picnic or easter and this is the first year I'm not there. I have so much work at school so I decided to not go home for it. A bit sad but I think it was the right decision.

Of course there's a light. Just hard to find it sometimes. :)

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klemthepotato Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014
It was the best journal i have ever read. You're awesome and I hope you'll be great. Take care and keep being as awesome as you are! <3
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
oh my, why thank you 8D 
:heart::hug: 
Thank you!
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klemthepotato Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2014
because it was so true and with great drawings and you're so strong and funny and sdffds ;w; 
you're welcome!
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magnolia-rabbit Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
You are a fabulous human being.  I really love all of your comics.  They actually make me excited to go home and visit my family today!

I'm very sorry about your grandmother. 

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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
haha oh gosh, thank you xD So are you!

Aw that's wonderful! :) Family is super important!

Thank you :") It's getting much better recently!
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