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One Year woah!

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 16, 2014, 11:49 PM


So woah! It's been a year since my past journal....oh jeez! I wonder if people still even read journals anymore? Seems like everyone likes quick posts one sentence statuses on tweeter or tumblr nowadays!
Well, I'll still write one regardless x)


So, where to even begin? So much has happened in the past year. I feel I'm still growing and realize, I have a long ways to go but I'm still on my two feet going somewhere! :)

Some good news is, I teamed up with a wonderful team/company called Threyda! Please go visit them and if you can support!! I'm so happy to be able to be part of such a talented group of visionary artists and they go and support some causes that I'm very much for, including spiritual growth and compassion.

Secondly, I did get a Society 6 Shop and DeviantArt Print Shop, where you can find my fan art prints and smaller (not as big as what Threyda offers) sizes of my originals! Anything I make now helps...since well I'm jobless. THE CHICKEN BUSINESS WENT DOWN MAN. IT'S ALL OVER. LOL Well actually they had to change locations and I couldn't work there anymore. I was sad because my boss was a kind man and it was a pleasure to be able to work under him and his family. I can only hope my next employer is like that!

That's basically me ALL DAY ERR'DAY. LOL ....the amount of docs I've watched on Netflix hahaha Specially after discovering the American version. omg. It was glorious...my little Canadian mind was overwhelmed with videos. D':


And since I spend more time at home...I spend more time with that damn remote. GOD DAMNIT.
Technology is moving to fast for me. I know I'm going to be that old fart yelling at the TV going "BACK IN MY DAY" LOL
Also, Luis is my brother's name.

Speaking of my brother, here's a list of thing he's done recently. He really needs his own show...the things this kid does. I don't know anymore hahahah

Is anyone else aware of the shadow people phenomena? D: Well my brother gladly made me aware...it's quiet terrifying. Sleep paralysis sounds horrible and he copes with it every night. He once told me that one of them wore a hat and stood at the edge of his bed. IDK MAN but I would pee my bed if I saw that hahahaha


He really wants cowboy boots LOL (that's his girlfriend haha)


My brother used almond milk instead of regular milk for Kraft Dinner. So if he can teach you anything....it's don't use almond milk for kraft dinner LOL Clearly.


This is my nonno aka grandfather....yes, he actually said this. I will one day make a segment of "things my nonno says" because they're usually all golden tid bits like this one hahaha


Another interesting person in my life...my mom. LOL That's the most accurate drawing of her of ALL TIME. haha And on the right is an example of notes that she leaves around the house haha .....yes those are cats on the bottom too  =_= lol


They kind of do though.




My boyfriend and all his gab teeth glory LOL :B ..he's....special........................:heart: hahahaha
(his butt looks like two apples in a plastic bag. JUST thought everyone should know that LOL)


AAANNNDDD I'm going to put out embarrassing things 8D  that's actually why I'm here.


Yes, I actually did this.


Ever walk underneath a lamp post and it turns off ?  I always feel like I have no soul when that happens hahaha okay, maybe it's just me.


Canadian geese...........Canada's assholes D': They scare me.....unless they're babies then they just look like they have lemon shaped butts and that makes me laugh hahaha


This is what I sound like when I describe the quality of my paper at conventions.........I really care about it but I end up sounding like a drug dealer LOLOL
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One last thing I feel I should talk about that is something that affected me so profoundly and still continues to do so to this day......is the death of my Mamie (aka grandmother). The one who raised me until I moved out at the age of 19 yet I still held strong holds and ties to her as I considered her my mother. She taught me so much about the world, including french and the importance of learning, travel and how to be respectful towards other people. I never really got to publicly talk about this since it happened on October 29th because I didn't know what to say or do. That month proved to be the hardest thing I've ever faced in my life.
The pain was so great, it was hard to vocalize it without judging myself or being afraid of what others would think or sometimes I even felt bad that my pain was making others sad. But I was taught a valuable lesson on those days during the funeral....and that is seeing how truly empathic and compassion others are capable of being. I was surrounded by loved ones and even though we were all suffering, we were able to stay by each other and offer the warmest care to one and other by simply being there. I was happy to see my family, friends and boyfriend care so deeply for me and everyone around them. This is the strength that we carry and I think if Mamie could see that, she would be happy that we're together since she was always the one who brought the family together.



Anyways, grief is hard...very very hard, but it's a part of life and the show must go on. In the end, I am okay, I can laugh and smile again. There rare moments were I'll get a memory of her and I'll tear up a bit....but I'm finally okay with being able to grieve naturally which includes crying and feeling sad. Those are not negative things because it means you're still human which come with a rainbow of emotions and that in itself is beautiful.


I will go now :D Those are things that needed to be said, even if no one reads it, that's okay!
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Thank you for being a supporter of my art, it's greatly appreciated! I'm glad you like what I can do and I'll continue to do so:star:

  • Mood: Peaceful
  • Listening to: Young Blood - The Naked and Famous
  • Reading: Bhagavad Gita
  • Watching: The X-Files
  • Drinking: Honey, Lemon and Ginger Tea
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KurushimiFutago Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
We really enjoyed reading this journal, it was fun to look at all the doodles you've done for it~ Your family also seems really interesting, haha~ :meow: :meow:

We're sorry to read about your grandmother, and we know that grieving is really hard... But it's good to know that it is getting better for you~
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FuK~u
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Candy-DanteL Featured By Owner May 2, 2014
Ahaha I always love those little doodles describing your life. Always brings a smile to my face xD (Haha your boyfriend's gap teeth..I have them too, lol! I heard it's called "the London look" or something.. 'cause a famous makeup brand uses models with gap teeth xD)

I'm so sorry for your loss. What you wrote up there regarding your grandmother was beautiful, I teared up. ahaha :hug:

Keep on truckin'! You write the awesomest journals, I missed them! It's good to hear from you C: <3
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner May 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hehehe thank you so much! x"D 

HAHAHAHA You have gap teeth too!?! That's amazing x'D It's unique and you should rock it!! lolol I had no idea they used models with gap teeth omg!! xD )

Thank you <3 It made me feel a lot better to finally write it out.......It's still a healing process but it gets better with time. :hug: 

I'm glad you like reading my journals!! It makes it all worth it! n__n" 
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Magianna Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2014  Student General Artist
I don't know what to say... just thank you for your journal, it was really nice to read this. I'm sorry for your lost. I believe you'll meet your grandmother one day :hug:
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner May 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
wow thank you so much :") That really means a lot to hear :heart: 


I think so too! I often dream of speaking with her...it's really comforting :)
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KitsuneFaerie Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2014
:hug: So glad you're doing alright now. And very happy you and Mel were able to make it out here! :D We should do that again when it's not so cold lol

Almost asshole... lmfao. Your brother. What even is he xD

And your mother hahaha I just hear you mimicking her "The babies" lmao

How are the cosplays going?? I'm stressing out a bit here LOL D: One month left D: D: D:
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug: Thank you Erin :)

yes!! We had a lot of fun that night!! I was just telling her we definitely have to go back up :heart:

WE'RE NOT SURE WHAT HE IS :|  LOLLOL

The bbabieesss xD Sadly, the other day I learnt one of her passwords involved the words 'thebabies' lmao I died

OMG.
I'm so stressed too you have no idea D'8 I hate it when I see people post "yay x days until AN!".....I HAVE A PANIC ATTACK EACH TIME LOL I'm half way done the 3D gear ...I'm just waiting on materials to arrive in the mail to continue but ugghhhasidja

what about you?! What's left? D:
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KitsuneFaerie Featured By Owner May 1, 2014
For sure! We'll do it again in the summer :) I was also thinking of organizing a cosplay picnic again like we did with Hetalia :D Not sure when or where lol but maybe if everyone's interested!

lmfaooo that's adorable xD

ME TOO MAN. I wish people would stop telling me it's May D: D: D: The mail wait is the WORST ;A;
I'm doing... alright. Mostly done mine and Nic's outfits, other than my giant sword. But Lisa's... ugh armour OTL Running into some problems there.
And we haven't even found the fabric for our Friday cosplay LOLLLLLLL OTL;;;;;
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kaiser-mony Featured By Owner May 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oooh!! That'd be awesome!! :D I'd love to do another picnic :heart:
I'll be really busy in the summer....but I hope a day can work for me. I'm going to a con basically every weekend on August and on July 15-21 I got invited as a guest artist to a festival in West Virginia (i'm so excited xD)! 

AHHHHH
GOOD LUCK!!! :star: IT'S CRUNCH TIME!! I'm stressing harder now hahaha
I'm sure all your cosplays will look amazing!! I can't wait to see you girls :
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KitsuneFaerie Featured By Owner May 15, 2014
We'll try to find a day that works for everyone :)

Every weekend!!? Wow I'm jealous! Are you selling your art of all of them?
WHOA congrats! That's amazing! You deserve it! :D

EIGHT DAYS. D: D: D:
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